Shut out the noise.
‘We long to be servants but are unwilling to leave the comfort of the lounge chair. We’d like to be humble – but what if no one notices?’
John Ortberg.
My steps are hesitant, which side should I choose? On one hand, my heart’s desire is to give God my full surrender and let His presence and joy soak through my entire life. Yet on the other hand, the flesh takes a step back and defends: I won’t get to control my own life – I wanna choose to do what I want, and whenever I want. Such is the struggle of a double-minded man. (hey i have my struggles too)
I think God has been hinting at me to withdraw from the world and into His presence again for a prolonged period of praying; I haven’t exactly done that and I think I’ve been such a blockhead. I was stopped dead in my tracks in my pursuit to do more, complete more and achieve more. I was trying to rush through my life, thinking that I’d benefit the Kingdom more while ignoring the cries of a tired mind, body and soul.
So much so that I had to take an MC after a serious bout of flu (no i wasn’t snorting either).
As I ponder much about my life for the past month, I figured: hey I’ve been pretty busy (or at least trying to be busy with something)! But much busyness hasn’t achieved much business at all. You could say I was trying to have a hand in everything around me – yeah you guessed it, I pretty much didn’t accomplish anything.
“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”
Luke 10:41-42
I need to pray.
