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The most unimaginable thing to do.
Today has been a day of breakthroughs.
#1 I just did the most unimaginable thing this morning. I had a dream last night and I felt pretty confused when I woke up. I could either 1) get absurdly angry with the individual I dreamt about or 2) know that God is prompting me about my hurts. So I chose to have faith and believe in God that I needed a breakthrough with a particular relationship. I took out my phone and I typed this word-for-word:
“good morning dad. i just want to say i love you and i’m learning to treasure you more. have a blessed day. see you tonight”
Now, that wasn’t anything special. But trust me, I wouldn’t harbour such a thought a couple of years back. As you know, I’m not an expressive person, neither is my dad, and I think I sort of took him for granted. (okay, I did) I’m the typical male who doesn’t say mushy stuff (wonder how I’ll ever say ‘I love you’ to my girlfriend…) and my dad is the typical male who doesn’t reveal his soft side. Anyway, I kept away all the hurts over the years and I knew God wanted me to give it up, take a step forward. So I woke up this morning on my bed crying and guess what? My bunkmate caught me tearing! (SO PAISEH.) Thank God he was like,’ eh you ok? wanna see MO?’ I think he thought I had a bad flu or something haha.
Anyway, God tore down a huge chunk of the wall I’ve built up around my heart… you know what? I think I just took a major turning point in my walk with God. Let the healing begin, let my life be rebuilt.
Moving on to #2…
#2 I saw discipleship in another light and I really need to re-evaluate the way mentoring is done. At the end of it all, what I really want to do is to build people who are strong and will last the distance. No man-made system is perfect but all of us can do our best to help one another grow in our walk with God.
Man, I really had my eyes open wide today. I’m pretty sure things won’t be the same again from this point onwards, and I pray God will teach me His ways more and more daily 
Looking back.
“I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love.”
Mother Teresa
I thought today’s sermon really struck a chord in me. The first point spoke to me so much on the relationships I have right now. Learning to be grateful for good relationships is easy but I realised that it is, indeed so much tougher to give thanks for a difficult relationship.
And God just spoke to me about all the hurt I’ve been storing up, hidden away from even myself sometimes. I really needed to move on from these things, and I think the way I can surrender these hurts is to have a grateful heart towards God; because He gave me these relationships for a very good purpose.
So here goes my personal version of ‘10 Things I learned from ________.’
A minor issue.
After several weeks of unceasing meditation under a tree on a mountain (or hill) in bukit timah and having not bathed for all these while, I have decided to return to civilisation of bright lights and sounds albeit a little smelly with dirty and slightly overgrowned toe nails.
And hence, I have discovered a great spiritual truth about myself… Read the rest of this entry »
